At times, my surrounding expects me to do something for the sake of doing it. This demand reflects in such moments the general expectation my surrounding thinks is appropriate. In these situations, it is usually tempting to surrender to this fate. As a consequence, my choice often falls on the smallest evil because none of the available options actually seem appealing.
Those new facts become part of daily life as time goes by. It is well known that humans can get used to everything if it lasts merely long enough. Accordingly, busy thoughts start to look for the positive. After all, this helps to relativize this situation’s extent, which obstructs occasional doubts and discomfort.
For some time, this works pretty well. Eventually, convincing myself that the situation is better than it is, does not work anymore, convincing myself that the situation is better than it is, does not work anymore. The bigger this awareness becomes, the more restrictive the situation feels. Then, at one point, I finally understand that I’ve just been doing what I thought I should do but not what I think I actually should do.